It's been almost 4 months.. but I still miss him so much it makes my heart heart thinking about it.
Time does heal, but I still miss him so so much.
I go from being totally content with it to being a total mess or emotions.
I heard a recording of his voice and oh my gosh!!! It was bad.
I watched a music video and it threw me for a MAJOR loop... Kristi saw it and said she felt like the last part was written for me.. It brought back so many feelings and memories.
My heart stops for a minute every time I even hear the word "cancer" especially when I hear someone I know has it..
When I did Anne of Green Gables it killed me to think that he would have been there cheering me on just like every other show I ever did.. he would have been out in the lobby bragging to any and everyone that I was his grand daughter (oh you have no idea.. ).
I miss his humour. He always knew how to make a person laugh.. even if it might have been inappropriate. Ha!
I see my girls getting bigger and learning new cute things and I wish he could tell me how proud he is of them ( I know he is proud of them)
I miss seeing him hold my grandma's hand.
I understand it was his time.... but I really really miss him.
I know he is happy and healthy and with his little Kathleen and I really am so happy for him.
I know I will see him again.
Luckily I KNOW that.