Picture time

I have been taking an online photography class and so for my assignment this week I had Soph help me out. It was a beautiful day and perfect for pictures. I write this as I hear the wind pretty much blowing my house over.. Anyway Soph took this photoshoot very seriously and pretty soon was telling me how she was going to pose and how she was going to do something "beautiful with her eyes". It was all her idea to lay in that brown brown grass but what do you know, i kinda like it. Sophie is really becoming such a "big" little girl. She has become my little buddy and sometimes I find myself talking to her like she is 25... partly because she acts like she is 25 sometimes.

I was discouraged yesterday because we went to ballet and midway through there class the director decided it might be fun for the parents in the lobby to "drop in" unexpectantly on there class to see the dance that they are working on for the recital. It totally caught Sophie off guard and she just stood there like a deer in headlights and didn't even move. I felt so bad for her because I could tell she was uncomfortable and I was very uncomfortable and it was all just a bad situation. I started to think maybe she didn't even like ballet and that I brought her to a class every week that she didn't even want to be at.. Anyway I asked her why she didn't dance she said with the sweetest little voice you ever did hear, "I was just so exhausted." Poor dear.

Anyway the point of this story is not that she didn't dance, because I know that she loves to dance and while watching dancing on TV she does all the moves perfectly but my point is that I never ever wanna be one of those moms that signs there kids up for all the things that she "should" be doing that are socially acceptable, even though they may not enjoy them at all.. I want to be a mom that embraces there childrens talents even though they may be different than what I imagined...

I got to know a mom through Anne of Green Gables that had put her daughter in ballet and after 2 years noticed that she didn't seem very excited about it so she asked her what she wanted to do and she said she really wanted to play hockey. She signed her up and she loved it and kicked all those little boys butts. Anyway I may be getting a little ahead of myself.. she is only 3 and she really does LOVE ballet and I have noticed a major improvement as far as her gracefulness.. she used to trip over her own 2 feet all day long but she never does anymore.. Point is, I hope that I can give my kids the freedom to express themselves in whatever manner they choose. I was given that privelage when I was growing up and it led to so many wonderful moments on stage that have really helped me become the person I am. I hope that Sophie finds something she really loves and has a passion for, whether it be ballet, hockey or underwater basket weaving. I just love her...