Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Why not be happy?

Electrician...
Not exactly the career path I would have expected Spencer to travel down. Spencer has always been a smart guy and so in my mind he would get himself some sort of brainsy degree but he would do a year of school for something and it just wouldn't excite him so he would do another summer of vivint and take another year off of school really getting nowhere. Then 2 years ago he started thinking about electrician. Everyone said, "Oh Spencer you are too smart to be an electrician." Dumb right? Finally after 7 years of working a job that was great in the sense that we got ahead and paid down debt, but bad in the sense that we didn't have a great family life. Being away from home all the time and really not feeling fulfilled in his job it was time to move on. It was clear in his mind that he wanted to be an electrician so we both finally decided WHY NOT do what you want to do? He applied for a job with Dorren electric and got the job the next day. He soon realized that being an electrician is not a job for dummies. Electricity is not a simple concept and is absolutely loving the challenges and is looking forward to his future as an electrician. 
So why not be happy? Why not do what you want to do? Why be miserable in your job? I know so many people that complain and complain about their husbands job.... I used to be one of them. Until we finally decided if it's not working then change it. Yes, this was a pay decrease. Yes, it was a risk. But Spencer loves his job and I love that I will have a summer with a husband!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

2 little things I'm thankful for..

Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving weekend!! We sure did.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Summer


I had a great summer.. We were super busy. I did tons of shoots and still managed to spend lots of time in Leavitt and even took a few trips to Montana with my parents. All in all it was awesome. It would have been better if Spence was here but what do ya do.. we see lots of him for the next 7 months. Anyway here are " a few" pics of this summer. It's really quite embarrassing  how neglected this poor little blog has been lately.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Life can be hard sometimes

Everyone has there trials. Everyone has there blessings. I found myself thinking a week and a half ago that things were just "perfect" right now. I was happy. Spencer was coming home. Life was good.


A week ago I had to say goodbye to another grandparent. As I went to the funeral home to give my Grandpa Leavitt his very last haircut I couldn't help but remember the time I went to curl my grandma packs hair at the same place 5 months ago. In 18 months I have lost 3 grandparents. 1 was from a hideous disease that took him quickly, 1 was a tragic completely unexpected event, 1 was old age. All very different, all very sad. Death is a part of life. I understand that if you live you have to die.. but it doesn't make it easy. I am grateful that my grandpa Leavitt is in a better place. That his body is free of pain and confusion. I am so happy that he can be reunited with all of his many siblings, parents, friends, ect. But as I watched my poor little  sweet grandma say goodbye to her husband of 73 years my heart broke. It doesn't matter how old a person is, they are still a person that is loved. He lived a wonderful life and he is a perfect example of how we should all live our lives. I know no one is perfect.. but he is about as close to it as you can get. I have NEVER heard him utter an unkind word about anyone. He dedicated his life to the lord and I know he is exactly where he deserves to be. There is no question in my mind.

So yes, we all have our trials.  As we have had a few disappointments over the last few days and have really had to step back and re evaluate some huge life decisions, Spencer and I have really had to rely on the lord and we know that life will take us down the path we are supposed to be on if we live righteously.

As we knelt in prayer as a family I felt very strongly that Heavenly Father had a bigger plan for us and someday we would understand why things happen the way they do.






Saturday, June 18, 2011

Little dancers

Soph & Grace had there dance recital. We decided to opt out of the recital last year and go see daddy in Winnipeg instead so this was a whole new thing for us this year. It was so fun for them to finally be able to show us all what they have been working on for the last few months. I was really impressed with how far Soph has come in the last 2 years. She started when she wasn't even 3 and she could barely walk without tripping over her own two feet. She is much more graceful now and it has really helped her come out of her shell too. She used to be so shy! I don't know if she will be doing ballet next year or if she'll do gymnastics instead but I do know that I am so proud of my little dancer and how brave she was dancing in front of all those people! I don't know if I could have done that at 4 years old.








Tuesday, June 7, 2011

I can do tough things


Im still here...
And Im ok

My mom said something that really hit me.
She said through losing weight she has realized she can do tough things.
Little did we know that the emotional journey my mom and I set out on 1 year ago to lose weight would actually prepare us for what happened 2 months ago. 
I miss her so much, my heart hurts so much.
I still cry everyday.
I dream of both of there sweet faces every night.

But I am ok.
Because I'm stronger that I thought.. and I can do tough things.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

How do I feel?

GRATEFUL
-to have 28 years of such wonderful memories with such an amazing person.
-to have had a grandma that was just like a mom to me. I don't think a lot of people are as close to there mom as I was to my grandma. I said at the funeral that I have always felt like I have 2 moms. My mom is the greatest mom in the world.. But I had 2 of them. I was lucky!
-that she didn't have to grow old, have health problems. She died healthy. I know that sooner or later she was going to start to grow old and how lucky for her that she got to skip that.
-that she is with gramps and her little Kathleen
-that I have such an extremely wonderful family that I can lean on for support.
-that she didn't have to suffer for long
-that we could pay tribute to her and it all went as good, if not better than we had hoped. I know she was proud and I could feel her there. I was privelaged enough to share some memories and sing and even though I didn't hold it together as good as I had hoped I know she was proud.
-to be so blessed to have her in my life for eternity

SAD
-that I lost her
-that she didn't get to see my kids grow up
-that she was sad for the last 16 months without gramps and we couldn't fix that sadness
-for everyone else in my family
-that life is going to be really different and empty
-that life just isn't going to be as fun without her
-that I won't be getting my daily phone calls from her
-that she isn't going to be my summer friend again this summer. We spent so much time together last summer and had big plans for this one too. We were going to be the "single ladies club".. no spencer and i are not separating.. he is gone with work a lot. :)
-that I don't have my gram to cuddle with anymore
-that my girls don't have grandma chicken to have sleepovers with, play with, sing with, laugh at and talk too.
-that I feel alone

CONFIDENT
-that I will see her again!!!!
-that she is happy
-that she was proud of me
-that I was a good friend to her
-that she is watching over me
-that I will pattern my life after hers.
-it was her time
-that I will be able to be happy again and someday smile when I think of her instead of cry


Thank you all so much for your love, support and mostly your prayers. We have felt strength in them and I am so extremely grateful and humbled.

We never know what heavenly father has in store for us and even though this was tragic and devastating and I sometimes feel like my heart is broken in two, I agreed to this before coming to earth and I know that through our trials come blessings. I am so grateful for the outpouring of blessings since this happened. I have so much to be thankful for and that's what I will focus on.


My grandma was one of the best! And she is my grandma for eternity. I am so grateful for that!